I really don’t feel like writing this today. I’m tired and have a definite lack of energy (there is a difference). But, after 23 installments, I feel like I’ve committed. I have an obligation to keep posting. So, I’m going to use one of my tools, opposite action, and power through. We had a different…
I don’t know how I was feeling at the start of today’s IOP session. I even put “I don’t know” on my check-in sheet. I was better than yesterday, no headache, but I was still pretty tired. I was feeling pretty good by the end of it, though. My check-in was pretty basic. I went…
I was back at it for week five of my IOP this morning. It was a pretty normal day. We started with check-ins and then moved on to skills. I was super tired and had a headache, so that wasn’t much fun. But the rest of the session was fine. For my check-in, I recapped…
We started IOP a little differently today. Instead of just diving into the check-ins, we did a mindfulness exercise. The clinician put some music on. I didn’t recognize it. I think it was Indian. Then, we closed our eyes and just listened. If any thoughts came into our heads, we let them pass and stayed…
Well, I had another lousy night’s sleep last night. So, I was tired again for my IOP. Not quite as tired as yesterday, but still pretty tired. We had a big group today, two new people joined. Because of the size of the group, check-ins took longer than usual. They went into the second hour….
I started my IOP today less OK that I started yesterday. There will be dips on the road to recovery, right? The thing is, I was exhausted. I slept terribly last night. I went to bed a little later than usual, but not too late. I still could have gotten eight hours if I hadn’t…
Today was different at my IOP. Not in any tangible way. I was still the first one there. We still started with check-ins and then moved on to skills. It felt different, though. For the first time at the IOP, when I said I was OK (I always say I’m OK), I meant it. I…
I overslept again this morning. I was still the first person at the IOP. In fact, I was about fifteen minutes early. That’s just because I’m preternaturally on time. I still had to rush which I hate doing. My check-in was good. I mostly talked about my weekend, which wasn’t good. I had a migraine…
Week three of the IOP is done. In theory, I’m halfway there. Today got off to a rocky start. I overslept again, and I was feeling anxious again. Maybe some rest over the weekend can fix both problems. I don’t really remember today’s check-in. I think it was fairly thorough. And I think I talked…
For the second day in a row, I had a lot of anxiety when I woke up this morning. It’s funny, I don’t think of myself as prone to anxiety. I think of myself as more of a calmly depressed person. Not the last couple of days, though. Unlike yesterday, it didn’t make it hard…
