You ever have one of those days? Well, I had one today. I really didn’t feel like posting anything today, but blowing my streak on the fourth day of the month would make me feel even worse.
So, what made it a lousy day? It’s hard to explain. I did get a terrible night’s sleep last night. I was having computer problems for most of the day. And I burned my finger making dinner. (I’m fine. I just bumped a pot of boiling water, and a little bit splashed on me. I ran it under cold water for a few minutes and now I can’t even tell where it hit me.) None of those things helped, but none were really the reason for the day being lousy.
My depression was just hitting extra hard today. I spent most of the day on the couch feeling like a failure. I can give you a bunch of reasons for that feeling, but the fact is it was depression doing its thing. Depression is a liar. If you listen to it, it gets stronger and stronger. It gets harder to fight off. I listened to it today, and I suffered for it.
Now I’m going to go to bed early and try to get a good night’s sleep. Then, I’ll try to block my ears to depression tomorrow. I have a lot to get done. If I can motivate myself, being busy should help. Wish me luck.
